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Steve Rogers ([personal profile] recruited) wrote2014-11-01 07:49 am
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mucked: (☂ moves in mysterious ways)

[personal profile] mucked 2019-10-16 04:16 pm (UTC)(link)
[ peggy still has questions—lots of them, questions bubbling up in the back of her throat, and questions she makes a herculean effort to keep reined. there will be time to interrogate him later. and perhaps she doesn’t think too much of whatever growth and development he may have found in the future, because she believes (whole-heartedly!) that steve rogers won’t stand a chance under one of her interrogations. just now, she swears he seems to once again be the stammering, stumbling steve that she’d gotten to know so well during the war.

—he’s still him, isn’t he? she can see it in his eyes. she can hear it in his sigh. she dares to think she can smell so when she cants her head and almost-but-not-quite nudges her nose against the reliable curve of his shoulder.

clearly, she’s got no intention of fleeing his arms and calling his bluff.

except: ]


Even so. You’ll have to let me go.

[ she parks her chin on that same shoulder—one heavy sigh seems to sell away all the tension carried in her posture. how remarkably easy, she thinks, to carve out a place for herself here—right here—fit so snugly against him. ]

The record player won’t turn itself on.

[ there’s one behind her and within steve’s sightline—it’s a lovely model, modern by the current decade’s standards, and flanked by albums. it’s the one corner in an otherwise utilitarian and sparse room that speaks to a life being lived.

even now, she sidesteps the intent of his questions, his comments, his concerns. steve pledges her a kind of togetherness and instead of facing head-on she doubles back to an earlier point: their dance. ]
mucked: (☂ o cursed spite)

[personal profile] mucked 2019-10-17 12:36 pm (UTC)(link)
[ it’s—unsettling. peggy is unsettled, just a little, by how he boldly takes the helm of their reunion. she may have been the one to conjure the record player’s use but he’s the one who intends to use it—circumnavigating her in her own sitting room and browsing her record collection as if it’s already half his.

peggy sets her jaw. she’s feeling frustrated and enamored and tempted all at once. hawkishly, she watches his back as he drops his chosen album into place—but by the time he turns, by the time he’s once again looking at her, she’s managed to school her face into a more curated expression. pleasant, yes, but distant—maintaining that same aloofness she’s always been careful to preserve while around him. to do anything else would mean wearing her heart on her sleeve and she’s already done far far far too much of that.

she clears her throat and eyes his waiting hand. trumpets—warm and brassy—fill the air underpinned by playful piano notes. the song is sparse yet jazzy. bright, yet measured. easy to dance to. and peggy, eyes narrowed, has to wonder whether he knew what he was doing when he selected this record. ]


I can’t think of any reason why you shouldn’t.

[ her answer is roundabout, sharp, and laid over a thin smile. peggy slides her hand into his and the touch sparks as if they hadn’t just already spent minutes in an embrace.

she tugs him near—close—and gives every impression that she intends to take the lead. ]
mucked: (☂ love buckles under the strain)

[personal profile] mucked 2019-10-17 11:59 pm (UTC)(link)
[ she feels the warm weight of his hand on her back. it reassures her and weakens her knees all at once. perhaps she's danced a time or three since his disappearance but only rarely and never without a sense of loss settled deep in her chest. not so now: her blood's never felt brighter, happier, speeding through her veins.

peggy dispenses with most of the modesty afforded a proper dance -- leastwise what the current decade might consider proper. she fits her body to his and lays her hand on his shoulder so that it can curl ever-so-almost beneath the collar of his shirt. she holds onto him and stumbles only when he makes such an unspoken drama of contesting her lead.

she looks him in his eyes and murmurs, quiet-like: ]


And here I was still expecting I'd have to show you how.

[ her voice stretches across the words. they're sweet and they're a bit coy -- flirtatious, almost -- but they mask pain, too. they echo their darkest moments, their abortive goodbye, their poorly kept promises. peggy's head tilts as the song picks up and she clears her throat with all the impatience of someone who believes she's only humouring him his lead.

-- though it's mighty lovely to hold his hand, she thinks. ]
mucked: (☂ who broke into the mansion)

[personal profile] mucked 2019-10-21 04:55 pm (UTC)(link)
[ with her next breath — exhaled, slow and careful — she infringes further on that thin bit of space between their bodies. the music dips; she noses her face against the crook of his neck and feels his pulse hot and present against her cheek. looking him in the eyes might be lovely, yes, but so is this aggressive proximity.

he flatters her — deftly, sweetly, and with more social skill than she’d ever thought he could muster — but peggy doesn’t let her heart get off-balanced by it. the entire moment becomes less about dancing and more about reminding herself that she isn’t dreaming.

— she remains so curious about his life in the future. ]


And what did people start to say?

[ if he won’t tell her the salient facts about his discovery, his work, or his return, then perhaps she could at least learn a little about his social standing in this brave new world he’d called home in recent years. who mattered to him? what was expected of him? did anyone look out for his soul half-as-much as they looked out for his public image?

peggy thinks about the day she’d found him doodling uniformed monkeys in the rain. the memory kindles an old indignation — she feels a bit bitter and jealous of the future, of its population, and of what they might have done-said-expected of captain steve rogers while she wasn’t there to direct him. ]
mucked: (☂ or near enough)

[personal profile] mucked 2019-10-25 04:03 pm (UTC)(link)
[ captain america. there it is—the title given to him by his country, his government, but one that she’d rarely ever used. if she called him anything, it was only ever captain rogers. or steve, in her more tender moments.

her expression crinkles, but it’s still so buried in the crook of his neck that she doubts (hopes) he doesn’t see her reproach. it’s unfair to hold him accountable for the things the world might have done or demanded of him. for example, she’d never held the uso shows against him. steve rogers had wanted to make a difference—no matter the how. doesn’t mean she didn’t leap at the chance to give him an out, an alternative, a third option. ]


Friends?

[ she asks — about as casual as she can muster. her hand tightens on his; her breath skates his adam’s apple. there’s no reason to be so possessive when she’s got him in her grip. yet here she is, holding him closer.

and, christ alive, it’s not as if she doesn’t also have friends. even if peggy would be unwilling to use the word. ]
mucked: (☂ i never lost control)

[personal profile] mucked 2019-11-12 03:28 pm (UTC)(link)
[ she’s taken aback by how easily, how confidently, he clarifies his position the moment he announces it. and both interested in other people. peggy produces a quiet scoff in the back of her throat, as if she might scold him for thinking she was at all concerned, but the reality is that his admission brings with it a flush of warm relief. her possession isn’t simply a romantic one, mind, but it’s good to have certain pieces of intel out in the open.

it gives her an opportunity to decide what she might (or mightn’t) do with the information. going forward. ]


Does Howard count? [ she hums, leaning her chin on his shoulder. ] Until today, I’d have thought I was likely the only one in the whole world who’d call him a friend.

[ but now steve’s back. oh, heavens, steve’s back. ]

And I keep in touch with Dugan. The lads.

[ but what about all the others? the friends he doesn’t know about? the friends she’d not met until after she’d already lost him, and the woman they’d grown close to was that hard-shelled and grief-stricken professional who hadn’t made it easy for any of them to get near to her. ]

Mister Jarvis will simply adore meeting you.

[ there. she’ll start there. ]
mucked: (☂ for three good reasons)

[personal profile] mucked 2019-11-22 06:14 pm (UTC)(link)
[ their dance evolves into a comfortable, close-bodied sway. once upon a time, she might have fantasized about clean lines and precise dance moves—but this is a more than appropriate substitute, she thinks, as she cozies her chin against his shoulder and feels the rumble of his voice.

hard to trust people outside of this circle, steve says, and silently she acknowledges that he’s right. even when she’s got every reason to trust someone, even someone within her circle, she struggles. it’s not always that she distrusts their motives; sometimes it’s as simple as distrusting someone’s ability to navigate the shadowed, dangerous vocation to which she’s committed herself.

these thoughts are swirling in her head when she senses how steve stiffens. her body language reacts to his—and she has to wonder what she’s said that’s had such an effect. ]


—What do you mean. Designed?

[ it’s not quite a question. she frowns into his collar, but doesn’t yet raise her head from his shoulder. ]
mucked: (☂ being right is my kink)

[personal profile] mucked 2019-11-26 05:00 pm (UTC)(link)
[ at first, he may as well have been talking in ciphers. ai system? it? her brow furrows; she retreats a step, breaks their dance, but doesn’t let go of his wrists. what the devil is he on about. ]

Now you truly do need to start at the beginning.

[ peggy’s insistence seems to rumble—even as her voice doesn’t. the horn music softens behind them. she can barely remember where they are on the record. does it matter?

tony stark, he says. not howard. her face screws up into a frown. ]


Howard’s son. Built a — system. And named it after Mister Jarvis.

[ it’s the natural conclusion. and it’s quicker, more efficient, to ask him outright than to merely ask who tony is.

cocking her head, peggy speaks again: ]


Do you know who Jarvis is?
mucked: (☂ ain't it just like you to kiss me)

[personal profile] mucked 2019-12-07 11:46 pm (UTC)(link)
[ think he passed before i woke up from the ice, says steve, and for peggy it's a tough sentence to hear. it stands to reason—naturally—that those alive and thriving in this decade mightn't make it oh-so-far. mister jarvis, already older than her by a small jaunt, would be...

well. she does the math and her frown deepens. as much as she'd like to stop and sing the man's praises from dawn till dusk, discussing edwin jarvis will simply have to wait. steve conjures the other unsaid thing. ]


It's—surprising. I'll grant you that. Not that I didn't already assume he must already have his fair share of wild oats planted all over the developed world.

[ no, what's surprising is that this is a son with howard's name. a legitimate son. ]

What's he like?

[ the question can't be helped. ]
mucked: (☂ if that watch don't continue to swing)

[personal profile] mucked 2019-12-09 07:04 pm (UTC)(link)
[ a lot like howard.

four words, but they speak volumes. howard is himself a man of voluminous character—capable of inspiring her and igniting her depending on what comes out of her mouth. and to think he’s got a son (will have a son) so very apparently like him. it helps peggy begin to conceptualize the circle with which steve might have surrounded himself. strong, powerful personalities. sharp, determined minds.

she smiles—feeling a warm odd burst in her nerves at the idea of her dear friend starting a family. already, she wants to spoil the little bugger. hop him up on sweets and send him back to his father liable to bounce off the walls. ]


That can’t be coincidence. [ can it? ] Howard’s son, finding his way to your team. Who sought out who?
mucked: (☂ you're not loving her)

[personal profile] mucked 2019-12-10 02:08 pm (UTC)(link)
[ there are traps, pitfalls, and aching background pieces to this story that she knows—but wonders whether steve knows, too. he articulates how mister jarvis might have guided tony, and the bottom of peggy’s stomach drops. she knows what happened to ana; she knows how desperately the jarvises wanted children but couldn’t have any of their own. how they both must have doted on howard’s son.

all the hungarian goulash he could ever want!

she inhales and steels herself against the thought of jarvis’s death, pivoting all her attention into what thin crumbs steve does share with her. tony had been an active participant in shield—and she isn’t surprised. it’s good, she thinks, that it becomes a testing ground for genius and innovation. security, certainly, but also celebration. the very imagining of tony’s briefly described suits sounds like something out of jules verne or h. g. wells. ]


Who else?

[ curiosity seizes her, now. she takes steve by his hand and leads him to the loveseat sofa. the record plays on, yes, but now she wants to sit knee-to-knee and hear everything. ]
mucked: (☂ the winter stripped the blossoms bare)

[personal profile] mucked 2019-12-11 02:27 pm (UTC)(link)
[ under different circumstances, the moment would have been tender. romantic. her fingers, tangled in his, and their knees bumping as they sit so close on her sofa that they might as well still be dancing for all the space between them. her thumb catches on the architecture of his wrist; she learns it, slow and eager, even as she learns about so much else. ]

Abilities.

[ she echoes the word, head tilted in curiosity. it’s a broad word. one might argue that any old person has got abilities of one sort or another. her ability to crack a russian one-pad in under five minutes might be considered remarkable in its own right. but the way steve says it, she imagines he must be speaking of a whole different scope. ]

How many of your—[ a pause, a winkle of her nose ]—Avengers have abilities?

[ but she commits each name to memory. ]

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